Meaning of being pleased [Part 1]

There are two inclinations relevant to ways of thinking indeed messing up my life. In this part of article, I solely dive into the pattern of Overthinking. I myself overthink oftentimes, as things do not go well. Specifically, if anything happens unlike what I expected, then I have a proclivity for dwelling on it. Unlike thinking negatively, it's overthinking or rather I do focus on two aspects, the positive and the other is what I called "learning from it" (presumably as the neutral rather than negative). That said, I couldn't keep my mind of bad decisions or actions.

One of the personal secrets that hardly have I confessed with others even intimate friends is my p*rn addiction. Now that I've grown in control over it and re-taken up a few good habits, say reading and planning, I realize this is time to bring it to light. Back in the "rainy days" - as I was struggling with the vicious cycle of "Pornography - Mastrubation - Orgasm (PMO)"; whenver I end this series of sins, I feel altogether guilty (completely opposite to when I am hooked onto the craving). This is because before I enter this cycle, I did promise not to get involved in it again. I, however, instead of thinking negatively about the completed wrongdoing, look on what I can learn from it (which relevant to the past), what to do to feel better now (present) and for the future. Having done of such virtuous things to ease my mind, I am still unable to get over the regret. It takes me a few days to stay back to normal, but unfortunately after every 7 days I still fail.

As usual, in every tuesday of a week, I may enter the vicious cycle once again. However, yesterday - that was Tuesday, I resisted to it with ease. This was by virtue of being pleased or more precisely happy. Despite bad things triggering my overthinking pattern, I still could stay happy (at the time I didn't know why). With that positive energy, I became more productive, focused on study and got over the urge of PMO with no effort. For that time, I realize that when I enter "I've got enough of it" state, the craving disappears.