This time, I read many books and listened to podcasts about loving yourself and fixing your heart. I learned to live alone every time because you went away to your love, who is not me. It is challenging for me because, as you know, you are everything to me, and I can't do anything without you. I forgot my bag, key, and wallet when I went out with someone because you always remind me about it. Last night, you said that you often awake at midnight, and you find me to hold, but we do not sleep together for a long time.