I am a very strong woman I have to say. I take any challenge the world is giving me. I appear to be so strong, so powerful so even when my heart was teared apart, noone recognized it accept me. I have so much self-esteem that I don't allow anything or anyone drag me down under any circumstances. That's when I realize I've been trying so hard...I feel tired sometimes, because the journey has been too long and exhausting. I feel like bending down on my knees sometimes, because it has been too much to take. I feel like crying my heart out sometimes when things just don't get any easier after such a long time, but it's a good cry because after that, I stand up again and fight for my desire, my goals and my dream. Like right now, after having such a terrible talk over the phone with our company's landlord, who shouted at me so inappropriately, I was so tough on the phone with him but right after I hung up, I bursted into tears. I want to call a person for comfort but I will never allow myself to ever again, I want to give up all the disciplines and rules I have for myself to do something stupid but can make me feel better at the moment, I want to sort things out quickly so I will never have to talk with that ugly person again. I want to let the past go, and never look back. It is always easier said than done. I decided not to do anything, I wipe my tear away, open my computer and write my feelings down. I know what I should do and what I will do. I will never let myself fall into the trap again, I will never allow my life to be decided by somebody else. Things will get better tomorrow because I say it and I know it. I will keep doing what I think is right, trusting all the good deed I am doing right now will be paid off someday. 
It's ok to grieve, it's ok to cry, the important thing is what you will do after all those mental breakdown moments. You will keep falling or you will stand up high, facing the sky, and telling yourself that everything will fall into places soon. You just need to give yourself time, just a little more time, and focus on your trueself, do what you love and live your life as nobody is watching.
Be strong, be kind, be nice and be beautiful. You will get there! You are working so hard, you are deserving all the greatest things in life <3
It is a bad day, but tomorrow will be another day, where everything is new and beautiful again. 
Leave the past behind and be present of this moment. What you do today decide your future.