I think i am going to fucking die alone. No exaggeration.
There has been several girls that I experienced failure connecting with. Or frankly, they don’t accept my feelings. This has made my self-esteem uncontrolably low. And I don’t like this one bit. No I fucking hate it. Cause it’s making me having a serious mental breakdown, and this is, as the matter of speaking, destroying me. And I really hope you all can understand that, I really can't convey just how much stressed and self-hatred I am feeling right now.
I do hope that this will go away. I hope, this will, someday, will become a phase, or simply just for the fact that it will just some how fade.
I dont know how much of the time I have left, struggling with this metal illness. Im praying that I’ll make it.