I've been having a hard time recently with all the relationships at work and personal life. I realised a while ago that I'm a typical people pleaser who hates to make people sad or angry and unsatisfied with me. So sometimes (actually most of the time), I put their feelings above mine. Then, end of the day, I'm the one who suffer more. This is such a bad habit and I've been trying to get rid of it but I think I've been like that for so long it's not easy to change. For example, when someone at work shows they are not happy with me and my work and tells me off, I'm scared to stand up and raise a voice, I choose to be quiet instead. I was upset at first but then I calm myself down and remind myself that I did the right thing and it's ok not to have everyone like me. In personal life I also have the same problems. Sometimes I see people approach for their benefit, I can sense that, but I still let them do it, and let them take over me without saying anything which is bad. I have a friend who texts me everyday, then they gone quiet for 3 days and I have all kinds of bad scenarios in my head. I think it's my defense mechanism that produces those kinds of thoughts so I can prepare myself for all situations so I won't get hurt. But that also means I can be overthink, and also over react, then eventually doubting myself which is the last thing I want to happen. For the situation I experienced this morning, I need to remind myself one more time I am the one that matters. People come and go, it's their right. But they can't treat me wrong, or be inconsistent with me. Now I don't know the intention yet, but I will know tonight. So please, care less about others and more to myself. I am a good person so I don't deserve something that let me down and disrespectful to me. So be happy, be kind to yourself and to others no matter what. Respect yourself and know that you deserve the best. Love, L