Oh Lord, I always go coffee with Joshua Fellowship every Sunday evening, is that right? In the world, so many people are dying every second without believing in Jesus, yet here I am, still at happy hour with my friend.
The time I spend reading books should take up a lot of my time. Thank God, the books I need to read (books that is important) are rare. But I forget what I read. Is this God's will? Should I keep going?
I have mental illness. I have no job. And yet I am painfully aware that I should revive the church. Is that God's will? Can I find a wife who shares the same vision and is of one heart and mind with me even though I have no purpose of live, and no job.
I keep staying at home to focus on reading books to prepare to revive the church, even though I don't know God's will for my life. I don't go to work for a living. I don't listen to the advice of people around me. Do I glorify my God?
Am I christian? Do I obey God's order?