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“We are all alone, born alone, die alone, and — in spite of True Romance magazines — we shall all someday look back on our lives and see that, in spite of our company, we were alone the whole way. I do not say lonely — at least, not all the time — but essentially, and finally, alone. This is what makes your self-respect so important, and I don’t see how you can respect yourself if you must look in the hearts and minds of others for your happiness.”
Sometimes, I can’t help but accept that most of the obstacles in my life, I will face it alone.
Isn’t it the perfect time that the universe wants you to love yourself more?
How can you decide on your own if you don’t believe in yourself?
Who is concerned about your feelings but you?
Someone said that you couldn’t be happy in a relationship if you couldn’t be happy with your own. I couldn’t agree more.
But loving yourself is really, really hard, especially when the negative voice has become so common in my life.
You are not enough.
You are not supported to be here.
Look at yourself; you’re nothing but a mediocre girl. Why should they give you a chance?
I don’t have any big, serious trauma in my life so far. Instead, they’re tiny traumas that continuously haunt my mind. Looking from the outside, you might conclude that my life had totally nothing to be worried about. Well, I keep asking myself what’s wrong with me?
For the rest of my life, I have sought out every opportunity to change myself, gain recognition from other people, and live up to all my parents’ expectation. But the negative voice doesn’t seem to cease at all. I still feel scared that someday people will realize that I’m not as strong and optimistic as the mask I have put on my face.

Writing about my deepest feelings is a tough nut to crack. I had better get off my chest more frequently in this 30 days journey, cause I can’t deny some low notes in my daily life. Maybe my next entry would be longer than this one. Anyway, congrats on my 10th post :).

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