Oh God, what am I living for? I want to follow in John Sung's footsteps and preach the Gospel!!! Today, there was a Bible challenge. I found that I remember a lot of verses in Bible. But it seems that God wants me to find a long-term career. Because I have schizophrenia, I find it hard to find a job. Am I right to stay at home and study the Bible all the time? Focus on your strengths, and success will follow. But if my parents died , who will pay the bill! Oh God, in this Bible challenge's church, I feel bad about X because I wanted to ask her out, but I know she is too young for me!!! I don't have a long term career or even a clear sense of my life's purpose, so how could I marry her? I can't even date just for fun because God doesn't like it!